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//cathartic noir//
an obsessive romance of abuse, trauma, dissociation, and suicide
told through vivid soundscapes of noise, free verse poetry, bell melodies drowning in reverb, and percussive despair.

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released February 10, 2017

mastered by jalipaz.
mixed/recorded/written/composed by Lav Andula
album cover by Cassidy Engel // Lav Andula
back cover by Gabriel the Dog // Lav Andula

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Track Name: ((be my ulcer))
incoherent remnants of
not so much lost time
not so profligate

smeared onto concrete
pale smiles
turning crimson

missing teeth
missing gleam

incoherent remnants of
not so much lost time
not so profligate

because now i get to live
through a dissociated canvas of skin
stretched over melted marrow
dreaming to solidify again

burlap sacks of smoke
huffing lilac

an attempt to emanate rot from the last
back to the depths of hell

an undead laugh like yours
i'm aware i never left.
Track Name: the sun is suffocating on my wrist.
you know you're sick
Track Name: i don't want to date a girl.
sap drips//cold lips
pale skin//crimson wrists
paint a face//cover your bliss
"this is all i've ever wanted."
Track Name: ((be my hives))
salvaging fragments of
not so much stolen skin
not irreparable

implications of blank space
a bruised neck
and a blushed face
turning pale

dripping ribs
growning wings

sweeping up the ashes of
not so much lost life
not irreparable

as my jaw breaks
through a mangled grin
i'll be whispering carbon

when i can feel my hands again
i'll dust myself off
pull my limbs back together
and keep walking

leaving behind
swan lake
and that decomposing pile
of poultry menstruation

it's gone...

and what comes next will be more fruitful than i can imagine.
Track Name: let me choose to drown // fin.
i left my body in an empty room
i don't wanna be around
draw me a bath of frankincense
let me choose to drown

while i am still warm
you can try and cool me off
pick out a special place in your heart
chain me the fuck up

sedate me
berate me
decorate me
penetrate me

chastise me
baptise me
let me choose to drown.